Im opened your closed.

Monday, April 30, 2007

Telling me you're seeing some other girl
showing me her photograph
And all the feelings tht i thought were gone
came rushing back to me at once
Tried to smile and hide the way i felt
But i was thinking to myself..
truth is i never got over you
truth is i wish i was standing in her shoes.
truth is and when its all said and done
guess im still in love with you..

SCH?

Sch was crazy!
Esp Math.
"IM THE ONE WHO DWELLS WITHIN CAIN!"
OMG.
Terrible high period.
And then when Ms Hwang appoached
Cass as she was damn scary cos she was high
we cld see tht MS H was trying not to laugh la.
LOL.
Wah terrible.
Yea aft sch went Hougang Mall with Chang
ate KFC.
She tried the cheese melts thing
surprisingly it was gd.
yall shld go try!
Haha.
Yea thts bout it..

and i nvr shld have let you go...
seeing u it kills me now..

at 4:37 AM

Sunday, April 29, 2007

I just finished doing my Lit assignment.
My arms hurt mans.
I was carrying dumbell while i was bored the whole day.
HAH.
Idiotic la but who cares.
I feel "muscle-less"
too flabby.
Too much choc for the past few days arld.
Too much!!!
Gotta cut down.
Cause its hard to avoid.
Super hard i swear.
OKAY I WANNAA SLEEP ALRD.
iM EXAUSTED!

NIGHT LOVES
NIGHT WORLD:D

at 8:49 AM

Fri.

Sch was damnit boring lar.Dunno why.
Yea lotsa things happened as usual.
Just felt bit weird the whole day.
But hey nth new.
Cause i've been feeling this way for the past few weeks?
HMMM..
Okay i finally turned up for Np after dunno how
many weeks!!
No wonder it was raining so bad.
Werid things happened during Np.
Sec three ma'ams.
Oh well not a bad start i'd say.
HAH.
yea then met LH and went for dinner.
Then headed hme arnd 8 plus.
Went hme!
Started screaming.
Cause parents were not hme and i heard
they were at causeway point.
Gosh best.
Slacked and did all soorta things i do
when im alone at hme
OKAY I HAVE BEEN MSGING A LOT!
ESP GANNEY LATELY!
my freaking bill is like
200 plus la.
My dad said our family bill for two months is 1000 bucks!
And i went omfg!
This is too much.
I can buy sooo many things with that sum pls!
YEA.
SO I GOT TO CUT DOWN.
So dun blame me if i choose not reply to ur msg.
:D
Okay.

SAT.

Had tution in the afternoon.
During tution i received many msges.
Of all times during tution la.
Goodness.
She got fed up tht she for the first time got angry with
me and said" can u pls turn tht shit off"
And i went like"whurrrt"
Yea it was fun as usual.
She rawks la.
Hey hey tht does not mean we play a FOOL
during tution but yea.
We start talking bout sch talk bout girls and so on.
We even share the same experiences regarding certain stuff.
Thts why i always look forward for tution.
After tution i will be like fucked up as ever.
Then had to go for some shit
fly function.
I tell u i hate those ppl okay!
THEY ALL SHLD GO SUCK SSHIT LA.
Go there they will give me the face.
I tell u i cant stand it.
Yea then left tht place like wht at 12?
can die pls.
But its a miracle i survived cause of GANNEY
who kept me company:)

SUN.

Can i say something?
SUNDAY SUCKS!
It simply sucks i dunno why!
I had emotional breakdowns in the morning.
Till ritter sport dark choc w hazelnut SAVED my life!
I duuno i jus cried like some shit in the toilet.
Without sound okay.
Imagine.
Suffered like anything.
ANW.
CANT wait for tmr.
thts it!!

oh can my bitch pls go back to work!urghhhhh

fight for a right to love yeah..

at 4:37 AM

Friday, April 27, 2007

This week this is the fifth time i walked out
of my home slamming the gate behind me.
Like wht the heck!
Cmon mans she gotta be crazy.
Nagging knowing it wld end off with a fight
like wht so damn bloody early in the morn pls.
6 is DAMNIT EARLY.
Its like im not even awake completely yet.
Wonder where shes gets those energy from.
Shits la.
Gosh a lotto vent but maybe too personal here.
Oh well so lets talk bout sch.

Sch can be fucked at times aswell!
But compared to hme!
Million times better
it like chosing btwn mcflurry and sunday.
I wld choose sunday!
Cause duh it has fudgee!
SO yea.
Gosh wht am i saying?
Rubbish mans.
Today was boring but fine.
I dun wanna comment on the bloody earth day crap.
CAUSE ITS CRAP.
Tmr got the kaleidoscope thing.
As usual am not gg cmon i don attend sch functions or concerts!
HAH.
Unless im a bit off at tht point of time la.
Life is far more complicated then i though it wld be!
gdnass!
I got to make choices like everyday!
Like for every single thing once i awake in the more.
like..
wht time to wake up?
how long to bath?
shld eat breakfast or not?
keep my mouth shut
and not say anything when she nags
or yelll back
or just ignore
or be nice to her.
Gosh too many things right?
IMAGINE.
Just frm 6 to 6 40.
Nonsense i tell you.
But hell, thts why i face every morn.
But im still alive.
What a miracle.

okok!!
i wanna take my "night bath"
then head to bed.

NIGHT PPL<3!

CUTE SHIT!

at 6:43 AM

Thursday, April 26, 2007

I've had enough.
Enough of me doing such stuff to myself alrd.
So i shall stop.
STOP HERE.
I really dont care about whatever that has happened.
I only care bout whats gna happen next.
HAH.
Now i know where im heading at last!
And im not gna let anything anyone!
pull me down.

there's nothing left anyway..
-NIGHT WORLD
NIGHT<3

at 7:01 AM

Okay today she confirmed with me again if
i was L?
wth
pls leave me alone!
IM INNOCENT for heaven's sake!
im not b im n.
HAH.
Go find out wht tht is.
Sch during break we were HIGH MACHINES!
cause this two HILARIOUS ppl
sec threes okay!
yea they were chasing like soome young idiotic
kids in the canteen
then guess wht!
one of the girls hit the dust bin or chair then fell down!!!
lol
cant tahan
They made us laugh like shit can!
Haha
yea the rest i blog later.
now i gtg

-bye

YOU GO SUCK SHIT!

at 1:27 AM

Wednesday, April 25, 2007

IM DUMB.
Studied chem like mad but after she said pens down
alrd spotted a small bloody shitted mistake!
urgh.
Oh well heck it.

Many hilarious things happen in sch.
But when i get hme i just forget!
urghh
frustrating mans frustrating!!!
missed xw today cause she went for guzheng and heard they got GOLD
WHOA!
CONGRATS!
HOHO.

What would u do when the one who'll make u stop
crying was the one tht made u cry?

-BYE

at 5:11 AM

Tuesday, April 24, 2007

Oh gosh sch was fine.
First period was home ed pract.
OMG, i tell u my mac and cheese was a disaster pls!
TOO MUCH CHEESE!
I can swear tht i will nvr touch cheese anymore.
Just sick of it now.
Wht else after sch had public speaking course
pls la i dun think i have to attend it.
But i did for wht i dunno but i did.
Yea then went kfc with charlae yea then headed hme..
OOO..tiredd siaa
suppose to be studying for Chem but
im tht kind whos brain works better aft 12 so yeah.
Haha im like addicted to Emily Rose pls.
1 2 3 4 5 6
1 2 3 4 5 6
im the one who dwells with cain!!
lol.
ok
thts it.

all i knw is tht she'll nvr love u like i do..

at 5:34 AM

Monday, April 23, 2007

you just never knew did you?

School was just fcuked.
I just felt shitted the whole day
except during Eng.
Oh c'mon Eng is like some high period for me.
OMG.
My source of highness is you and i just realised?
tooo late eh?
HAH.
Who cares.
Oh gosh i was damnit close to getting my phone
kena confiscated!
Lucky me mans !
hahahahaha..
Okay okay im bit off right now.
Cause my muMA is buying me my fav
b&j choc fudge brownie!!
omgggggg!!
How exciting is tht.
Okay back to the fcuked
life of mine..

why?
why cant those thoughts and memories of us tgt
stop haunting me...
why inflict pain on myself when its of no use?
why?
i asked myself these ques last night.
and cld not come up with anything but tears?
how shitty is tht suppose to be?
just wanna say i truly miss u
i miss ur crap
i miss outings wif u
miss bus rides with u
miss wasting my time with u on the phone
i jus miss all ur shit
i wish i can turn back time
i swear i wld have been mre sensitive
and not just drop the whole shit ..
i feel like shit for tht.

whts hurts the most
was BEING SO CLOSE
and having so much to say...
and watching u walkaway...

at 5:47 AM

Sunday, April 22, 2007

PAST FEW DAYS WERE SIMPLY LIVING HELL FOR ME.
FAMILY PROB THE BIGGEST UNWANTED SHIT .

Which causes me to be fucked in sch.
Mood swings during my period.
I M worried of myself...
There is just too many things on my mind right now..
Don feel like blogging.

-BYE

at 7:22 AM