if i played u like a toy?
sometimes i wish i cld act like a boy.
Woke up at 9 plus.
Got angry cause my motherr did not wake me up.
And i soo damn wanted to got to sch.
Cause i get to be myself in sch.
At hme i cant.
Each time i shout or scream when im high
they scold me.
Like wth?
They are the only ppl who dont like me being high.
Damnit.
Sometimes i love them a lot
sometimes i totally hate them.
I knw this sounds childish but i hate it.
Oh well drop tht.
Watched the exorcist tht i borrowed frm brenda.
Maybe cause i watched it in the morn thts why i was not thrilled at
all by it.
HAH.
But it was quite scary though for watching it in the morn.
Yea then Dad came back wiith cheesefries and popcorn chicken.
I went like whurrt.
Im alrd suffering cause i've not been doing sit-ups cause i hurt my back
terribly few days back CAUSE OF SIT-UPS.
I tell u i can swear tht i look 5mths pregnant right now.
And damn,
gym day yest was cancelled and postponed cause my back
was aching like crazy.
It was postponed to Fri.
But hey looks whos here using the comp when shes suppose to be out there
in the GYM.
urghh.
All thnks to her.
Oh wells but seriously i did have a gd rest at hme act.
Knwing tht Fri had tamil im 40% glad i din go to sch.
Oh and someone told me something abt someone.
And i tell u im damn frustrated.
Its like what the heck.
So damn terrible la.
Though shes not in the same class as me neither does she
act affect my life she was a gd friend of mine in pri sch.
And hell, now i totalley detest her .
Whts the point of being nice when u hate tht person?
Its like lying and cheating urself
which i consider reprehensible.
Oh wells i have a lot more to say but hey i don wanna waste my time.
Okkay might MIGHT be going out for dinner later.
I really don wanna go i prefer Fri nights at hme and Sat nights out.
But tht doesn't happen in my life.
Fri nights hme.Sat nights hme aswell.
Only sometimes Fri nights out.
And Sat nights spent at relative's place or some
stupid useless functions they hold which is better off
not holding in the first place.
I think i have gone thru most aspects of life.
I think thts really helpful cause when im stuck at a prob
i usually or most of the times act knw how to
get my butt outt of it.
Like now i know the pain of hurting my back and i swear
the next time i do sit-ups i will lay a mat or atleast a towel.
How silly of me, when i think of it now.
Yea.
The prob now and whts getting on me is the comp.
Caus eof some stupid virus my comp was re-boot.
Then all the pics, songs, files which contains memoies are GONE.
OMG.Its like damn hard pls.
Like the only memory im left with some ppl is gone.
Terrible .
The pain of losing someone is terrible and makes u feel
hopeless, hopeless to hope.
Here i am damn bloody bored listening to like a boy over and
over again.
HEH.
Dumb but cant stop.
Yea i wanna go do something which will make
me feel better. But
the only thing i can do is sleep.
But i guess tht will make me worst.
Cause i will start to think and think.
And trust me I DON WANT TO HAVE WHITE HAIR!
Ohh my!
I wanna go for a movie.
Just any movie i've got like 4 free GV ticks la.
I dun wanna jus waste it.
I dunno wht to say alrd.
you know whts funny?
seems like everytime i try to forget abt u
my feelings pull me back in
you see,
its crazy
cause i got somebody else
you got somebody else
but u and i both know,
tht it really is?
but still..
u know wht im saying?
come with me i'll show u the world.