Im opened your closed.

Wednesday, May 30, 2007

I tell u i seriously hate this whole
shopping shit for weddings.
Cause i know myself i only wear those stuff once.
So wth.
I don like shopping for this SHIT!!!
and wtf i don even wanna go for the fucking wedding pls.
I really dont care!
But hell i HAVE to
cause its my freaking cousin.
URGH.
TELL ME WTF TO DO NOW??!!
I HAVE TO GO AGAIN LATER LIKE WTH.
I CANT EVEN GO OUT W CASS,GAN ANS SARAH.
WHT A FREAKING LIFE!

fussin and fightin we're back at it again..

at 7:36 PM

Tuesday, May 29, 2007

After yest exp.
Ive decided not to shop w the muma
after work.
Cause all she cares abt is herself.
So yea.
It was a serious waste of time i
tell u.
In the end only manage to spend 140bucks on
some suit for the wedding.
Oh fuck.
So much just on tht.
But lucky me i din pay for it.
She paid!
So i still have my 200 bucks.
Meeting D ltr at Bugis.
Oh my i better get going.

5 4 3 2 1!
IM OFFFFF!! (:

at 8:48 PM

Monday, May 28, 2007

Memories consume

like opening the wound

Im picking up myself again

You all assume

Im safe here in my room

Unless i try to start again

Clutching my cure

I tightly lock the door

I try to catch my breath again

I hurt much more than

anytime before

I have no options left again.

I'LL PAINT IT ON THE WALLS

CAUSE IM THE ONE AT FAULT

I'LL NEVER FIGHT AGAIN

AND THIS IS HOW IT ENDS..

at 11:42 PM

MY DEATH?

Okay i nearly died just now alright.

I did something real idiotic just now.

I wanted to make myself maggi mee

cause i was hungry and there was nth left in the hse as i was SUPPOSE to go buy myself breakfast.

But lazy me cld not carry tht fatass of mine out of the hse.

When i turned on the stove the damn shit irritating thing was not working?

So i act hero and did something to the gas container shit.

Then it started giving out smell and made funny and scary noises.

I tell u i freaked and alrd made my LAST WISH

knowing tht i was gg to die.

But then again.

Its not my time yet!

The thing just went off.

OMG.

THANK GOD.

Im not tht stupid.

Yep then decided to make the maggi using the microwave.

HAH.

Shld have done tht earlier but too bad.

It was quite weird i was not afraid to die.

Cause i have lived enough?

HMM.

Not too sure.

MY 200 BUCKSonly?

Oh wells ltr gg out again.

Meeting mum at city hall.

I still got the 200 bucks she gave me!

So im gna spend it all ltr.

Oh maybe keep some for chalet.

But maybe spend all.

AHHH.

I don give a shit.

I will see how it goes.

But im soo not spending my money on heels okay mumma?

Tht she better pay for me.

Cause its not like wear heels everyday.

I wer it OCCASIONALLY.

And now im buying cause of some sickening wedding dinner this sat,2nd June.

My cousin is getting married.

But i dont like his gna-be wife in three days time!

She sucks.

Oh well i like i care a hell bout his life.

yup.

So yeah.

But i like weddings cause i get to stone.

Cause i get free food!

And ofcourse get to see my LOVELAE!!

YES YES.

Ohh mann now i cant wait.

HMM.

Oh yea my six yr old cousin BRUDDER.

Hope he recovers soon!

Cause poor boy he felt sick at the wrond time!!

When kids are enjoying their ice cream he is enjoying

his disgusting med.

Omg.

The thought of it makes me sick.

YUCK.

Reminds me of my sick days.

so sick?

at 10:55 PM

Sunday, May 27, 2007

Okay.

Its alrd the hols.

Its alrd June!

And nth seem to have happened.

I feel the same.

I have not lost or put on weight or maybe

have put on a bit.

My life,

is still the same old ups and downs.

But its not like im totally depressed or anything.

Its jus sometimes i feel kinda emo and weird and

like wanna run away somewhere and seriously,

never come back.

Oh wells though thts nvr possible

cause i'll need my passport for tht and thts just

NOT possible.

So for tht!

I give up.

Well the only way maybe is to be out.

And then once im returning hme.

Just sit in the bus and nvr alight till the last stop which is the interchnge

and then take the bus back again.

Whoa.

Tht will be so damn bloody fun.

Just me and the bus.

Maybe i shhld switch off my phone aswell.

hmm.

I am really gna do tht.

So yeahh.

I shld go out more often.

Maybe somedays i shld go out on my own.

As in all alone.

And just lie to mum tht im gg out w friends.

Cause i swear she'll think im mad to go out alone.

She alrd feels i need a psychiatrist.

Cause yest at the hosp when i went to vist

this 6 yr old kid.

My cousin.

I was a bit off.

So i told my mum.

"I think i shld be admitted more often its so peaceful here.

Theres is noone to disturb you.

And the more u can spend time w urself talking to urself"

I tell onc ei said tht.

She stared at me.

Well i guess i really freaked her out.

But who cares,

I just said wht i felt like saying.

I mean its true.

All u do is just lie there.

Food is served.

When ur sick all u will feel like eating is fruits.

So hey thts super healthy.

U wont put on kilos.

Whoa.

Greatt life right.

HMMM.

Drop tht.

Im super bored now.

Im doing crappy shitty stuff.

Woke up at 10.

Tried damn bloody hard to wake up at 10 okay!

Cause i din want to watse the morn away

just slping.

So yeah.

Well too bad the earliest i cld wake up is 10.

YEP.

Then brushed took my shower and switched on the tv.

I tell u there were screening Dr.No or whtever shitass movie tht was.

It was this double 0 7 movie.

James Bond.

I tell u tht guys kisses girls more than stops crime or whtever hs suppose to do.

Tht horny dude!

Ohh mann.

I got damn bored so i turned it off then here

i am crapping away in the comp.

I think this is fun.

Cause in a way act ur talking to urself.

HEH.

Yes wht.

Oh wells too bad if u disagree.

Maybe yea its not true.

Myabe it is.

AGHHHHSHHHUTUP.

OKay now im freking bored.

Im gna go.

i cannot find a way to describe it

its there inside all i do it hide

i wish tht it wld just go away

wht wld u do

u do if u knew?

all the pain i thought i knew

all the thoughts lead back to u

back to wht was nvr said

back and forth inside the head

i cant handle this confusion

im unable come and take me away

my words are cold i dont want them to hurt u

if i show u

i dont think u'd understand

cause no one understands...

at 8:15 PM

Thursday, May 24, 2007

sometimes i need to rmb just how to breathe
sometimes i need you to stay away from me
sometimes im in disbelief i didnt know
somehow i need you to go
sometimes i feel that i trusted you too well
sometimes i just feel like screaming at myself
somehow i need to be alone.

dont stay

forget our memories

forget our possibilities.

i dont need you anymore

i dont want to be ignored

i dont need one more day

of you,

wasting me away..

sometimes i wish things were the same
somehow i wish gd things nvr come to an end.

at 8:45 PM

-Coffebean

-Just me and ganney in action.

Sch was gd.Well to say i act went a little crazy.I was screaming like some brainlesss asshole who had a deprived childhood.I was pretending tht we were all on board the ship Titanic.Then was yelling Rose and Jack.Pooor classmates.Sorry ah.Probably drove yall nuts.Hah.I dunno i jus felt like being happy.I din even clean a shit up!

Fuck.I feel bad but then again i dont(:

The whole hall presentation was goood.I mean this yrs seriously the best sports day i've ever had.The committee ppl deserve a thumbs up!Wonder how it wld be nxt yr mans.Oh mann the thought alrd gives me chills.Hais its sad they got to leave.I mean its not like im gna cry but obviously some ppl are gna be missed!Those who made sports day happen.

After sch.Went j8 w Lh and Cass.First we wanted to lunch at coffebean but then again decided to save up so went to the foodcourt and had chicken rice.Yep then walked arnd.Then decided to go get something to drink at coffebean.I got this white choc dream.It was gd.Better than the usual.Yea then we took some pics for self-entertainment.Then left at 5 30.The earliest i've ever left j8.

its still you.

at 3:41 AM

Wednesday, May 23, 2007

Sch was contradicting today.

Oh wells.

To begin w i was seriously high in the morn.

And then got pissed off during break cause

of some asshole sucker.

Then bloody emotional during all the other last

few periods.

Tell me why i've been feeling this way recently.

I dont know.

I know its no gd for me.

But i jus cant.

Im just so stuck up in this dumb shit feeling

which is obviously getting me nowhere.

if u knew wht was running thru my head then.

Tmr wanted to give a miss to sch.Cause hello i hate cleaning up my own room

wht mre the sch.Like i care a hell for tht.My ass ah.

But oh wells due to some stuff i gotta go.

Yep maybe gg out after tht.To end off the term well.

HEH.

Alright thts it im done.

baby you,have become my addiction..

at 3:33 AM

Tuesday, May 22, 2007

Can i say something?
Sch is a waste of my time.
Today sch was such a waste.
So wasted tht i cld have stayed at hme and
slept longer or mayeb go out or maybe jus STAY
at hme.
Im so used to sleeping late.
Cause its not too long after i fell sick.
So yea.
Oh wells.Many things happened today.
For all i know is tht i was seriously horny during like wht
all the lessons in sch?
Don ask me why.
But tht!FHM card seriously can drive u nuts!
Like wht Mdm Z said.
She said it can make guys wet themselves.
Boyy thts sick.
Yes.And not forgetting Gan.
We fought haha.
As in she was bored so she kept
messing up my hair.
I swear i went nuts.
Then she said she will bite me.
As if i wont bite her back.
Oh wells.
Then she poured water on me.
I chased her arnd the 4th level.
But hello im sick.
My damn air passage in blocked.
Later i die to early.
Dont want!
So saddening.
But yep.
So i decided not to chase.

Me and mum are in gd terms alrd.
I swear im the happiest girl in the world right now.
Or mayeb just a happy daughter.
Yay.
So i guess the shopping wont be a prob.
I need clothes.
I mean its not like i dont have clothes hello!
But its just i want more.
And i want tht bloody jeans okay!
I swear i will get it by chalet.
Or atleast hope to(;
Yeah.
Ms L loves shouting my name right?
Every single thing also.
"DHARSH SHH"
Thts wht she calls me .
And at times.
"DUTCH"
Like hell,as if she named me la.
Damnit.
She and her ultra gross dressing sense.

Yea then nth else happened.
Din go for Public Speaking again.
Instead had this loooong talk w
Gan and Travis.
Yea then maced w Travis then headed hme!
Im hme before 7.
Am i suppose to be proud or whattt mans!

J
maybe i shld have?
if i had,things wld be way diff now.
but u din wait did u?
Now all u want is her.
u've got her.
I ve got nth left.
& i jus walk away pretending
i nvr knew u..

S
i jus cant click w u.
though u are ultra nice and
smart .
its jus this nth tht we have in common.
yes i felt for u.
yes i cared for u.
and hell yea i like talking to u.

i shared my probs with u.
cause i needed someone
and u were there.
the gift u gave me feels like
a farewell gift.

but is it my fault?
maybe it is.

and i feel dumb for tht.
maybe i made a mistake somewhere
along the way..

now i feel .
why cldnt i jus like u?
cause now ur gone.
and i miss you.
but fcuk only as a friend.
i NEED morn msgs!!!
i need it to get me thru the day!
i need u back in my life damnit.

why cant we jus go w the ones who love us.

at 4:34 AM

Monday, May 21, 2007

DAMN NOW I WANT CANDIES!!!!!
URGHH!
MY BLOODY CRAVINGS GOT MEEE MAAD!

at 5:29 AM

Yeah back to sch today.
Alright sch was fine today.
I tell u im damn fcuked cause of my
results for tamil.
This is ridiculous la!
Wth.
I got a B3 shitass.
Same as my chem.
Which is NOT how its suppose to be.
How can?
URGH.
I tell u im frustrated.
And i flung my Eng paper like fuck.
Fuck fuck fuck.
I sweared a lot today.
And im not proud of swearing la.
Who wld be.
Im trying not to.
Cause duh its no gd!
Oh wells.
I will try!

Hmm.
I cant stand the bloody weather la.
Damn u la.
Stupid Sun.
Nobody wants u.
Give me the rain mans.
HAIS.
Life is gettting better?
Just bcos of gd results?
My ass.
Its getting worst.
I tell u ppl better not be surprise to
see me at IMH if yall happen to pass by.
I've been smiling to myself.
Getting high at the wrong times.
Going crazy.
And then aiyyerr.
Its just the same old mood swings.
But i tell u this might get dangerous.
Oh wells i think its bcos of the medication i had
for the past few days.
Cmon 12 tablets and 4 spoons of cough mixture A DAY.
Crazy yet happening.
Damn .
The taste of the bloody med fills my mouth.
Till i go drink water like some mad dehydrated shit.
Then end up w sleepless nights.
Which i hate.
Cause i go to the toilet like what more than 3 times atleast in the night.
How the hell to sleep????
urgh.
Then wake up in the morn feeling sleepy.
Nonsense sia.

Life is contradicting.
I hate it.
I dunno!
I just don get wht i want this yr at all!
Not like last yr.
Last yr was hell lot better.
But oh well.
Past is past we cant turn back time can we?
So yea though i tell myself each day.
"You've just got these stuff,so shut the
hell up and live w it"
But huullllooo!
Im the one saying this to myself.
HEH.
Like i wld listen.
BULLSHIT.

HMM.
BACK TO SCH.
That bloody Math tcher was annoying.
I hate her voice her face and her freaking attitude.
THOUGH she was wearing RED.
Whatever.
Mrs lee wears red too but hey who loves her?
Okay this is dumb.
Going crazy over red.
WTH,
call it childish?
HAHA.
Wait till u find out wht i do at hme.

Now my plan for ltr.
NTH!NTH!NTH!
Except wait till she comes hme w my dinner.
Cause i tell im like some pathtic shit.
Who ate porridge tht disgusting spoiler for
my stomach.
Yea then watch tv.
Feel liek watching KAL HO NAA HO.
All of a sudden.
I tell u feel like crying thts all.
Weird but hey thts why meet me at IMH!
YEA.
Shutup when she nags otherwise wont be able to go for chalet!
Then yea just shut up eat chocs or whatever thts left in the fridge.
I tell u my fly must have finished everything and licked the wrappers la .
when i was sick.
And obviously BED-RIDDEN!
AHHH damn tht.

DAMN.
I've been coughing like some mad dog.
Cough cough cough.
Like some barking bitch.
Fuck i hate this.
But yay.
I dun have to do PE.
Though during Pe we play badminton i prefer slacking.
Cause the world knows i suck at badminton.
Maybe even insulting tht sport.
So heng me.
Yep.
Stoning durign PE
rawks my world.
Cause our PE is like what most of the
time during the last few periods.
So obviously don feel like taking right.
See quite logical.
And somemore gotta change.
Forrr whutt?
For tht freaaking 40 mins.
Ultra crazyness.
Haha.
Okay im saying all this cause its alrd the last week of the term.
So can complain all i want.
I don have to bear w it and convince myself anymore.
Hais.
Im still not happy.
I WAANNA VENT MY ANGER ON YOU.
You stinking bitch!
Laugh somemore la!
urgh i hate u.
YAY.
IM done.
No use swearing at bitches.
Cause it wont help unless u bark like em.

Fcuk this,
we had to stay back aft sch for wht!
For some stinking Guzeng posing and then photo taking shit.
HELLO!
Do we look like fools to yall?
We got like so many other better things to do.
Fcuk ah.
Like we wanted all this shit pls.
At the end of it no thank you!
WTF.
Bloody shits.
Last min call the whole class.
At then end,end up only taking pics of two ppl.
DAMN.
I cld have took the bus!
I CLD HAVE TAKEN THAT BUSSS!!
HEARD THAT?
THHHAAT BUS!
URGH.
DAMNIT.
Wasted my bloody time there la.
Not like 2.3 has many pretty faces pls.
Oh wells.
Whatever mans.
This is rubbish and USELESS.
Just for some magazine or webpag whtt i still dun give a shit.
Why must i give a shit to things i don like?
Hello not like i don have a choice pls.

AH.
Now cause of tht!
I have no mood alrd.

-

& i really hope you still want me the way i want you.

at 2:05 AM

Wednesday, May 16, 2007

Woke up exactly on time today.
Felt like i din even sleep the whole night.
Oh well nth new.
Happily went to sch.
Haha.
Surprising nth fucked happened.
Well got bit high durin reflection.
All cause of gan and bren.
They are super hilarious ppl.
Yea same for break went high like mad.
Yea then during REW
the person kept calling me psychologist and kinda got me mad
cause sounds a bit weird.
I mean aiyerr heck tht mans.
Yep i feel im back to myself these days.

Got back math results today.
Oh well thought i wld fail totally din expect wht i got.
Buta yea.Im glad.
Oh well for chem Mrs teo gave us like high hopes
on our results.
But im still kinda scared.
Its either i did very badly or very well.
It has to be extreme.
I dunno but i just feel it.
So yea.
Me and gan got high cause of the horny bitch
Rachel tan i tell u.
Tht moron act did something really sick and
horny.
Don wish to elaborate.
Yea then we brought our RED pillow for
a walk to the toilet.
And just found out tht some of the A2
ppl can be really sick.
OMG.
Terrible.
LOL.
Well i guess its just the
after exams thing.
Like the whole row of classes act went wild today.

HMM.Then after sch serangoon macs-ed w lh and gan.
Omg.Like after a looooooooooooooonnnnnnnnnggggggggggggg
llllllllooooooooooooooooooooooooooooonnnnnnnnnngggggggg
time mans serangn macs.
HeH.
Yea guess we decided to give ourselves a treat.
There were this bunch of rowdy boys
shouting vulgarities across the area la.
Cmon mans ppl eating they go "cheebye".
No brains sia.
Act yea they have no brains or rather low IQ.
AHBENGS(if thts how u spell it)
Yeah then went hme.
BEFORE 5.
Im so proud of myself.
Im really proud of myself these days(;

gtg bye.

IM OVER IT.

at 3:28 AM

Tuesday, May 15, 2007

SCH SCH SCH.
Aiyerr
kinda sick of it.HMMS.
Well erm exams are over.
Im very glad though i don sound as glad.
Stayed back in sch wif the naughty but lovable person.
We jus talked bout many many things.
HAH.
Things which only the both of us know.
I dunno but i feel better talking bout it.
Yep yep.
Past few days..
oh yeaa
ystd i tell u had loads of fun at Cass hse.
First we watched some korean horror movie
then THE EXORCIST.
HAH.
Then lastly the scary movie.
I tell u laughed like maad haha.
Its super hilarious esp the starting.
What do cows say?
its three letters..
"dude!"
Lol.
DUMB ASSHOLES i tell u.
HAHA.
Yea then left bout 7.
gOSH once reach hme.
Back to hell.
She is jus somd contradicting muthafucka.
I can stand it no more.
Its too muchh alrd.
I think its time i TALK to her.
Its terrible.
The whole suspecting shit stinks.
For hell's sake stop it.
Shes damn bloody fcuked up.
Fucking feel like running out of this fuccckkkinnng place now okay.
I just had to emphasize on tht word as im saying it out loud now.
DAMNIT.
She just called.
Shes heaading hme.
daaaamnit.
Frustrating.
Okkay.
I realise im a bit a bit a bit
lost in something lately.
A BIT.
Okay drop tht.

Haiyeerrr.
I still think u suck.
Damn u lar bitch.
I don like u laaa.
Freaking shitass,
shithole,
shitsuckerr
anything tht has to do w shit!
YOU SHITTY PERSON.
I stayed back cause of my bitch
and not because of u okay.
LOSER.
HAHA.
I dunno but scolding u makes me happy.
Ok shit.
This does not mean anything.
Its jus some usual crap.
You typa low mentality ppl wont understand.
SO STOP
BEFORE I ATTACK!

look me in the eye and promise u wont do me the same.

at 3:32 AM

Friday, May 11, 2007

Should i be glad tht Lit is over or
be worried tht Math and Chem is not over?
Well i guess i will go for the sec one.
Cause yea im obviously worried for the two subs.
I really wanna pass Math badly.
And atleast score and b3 for Chem.
Cause i gotta do well and make myself happy.
Cause recently i have been very disappointed w myself.
In the area of friendship i think i suck.
I just cant handle it properly.
Im sorry to all those i hurt or am hurting right now.
If im hated for the way i am thts too bad and certainly cant
be helped.
But if im hated to something i did wrong,now thts bit fcuked.
WORST.Hated for something i din do or rather mistaken for doing,
thts the most fcuked ever.
I dunno why im saying these but i just cant forget certain things.
Its like a point of time u love
this person so much.
Then u hate them and crush them upside down like
shit.
And then u love them again.
Then it all starts over again.
Im speaking bout friendship here aight.
Not whtever u think it is.
Yea its like
now when i talk to them,
i feel like im hurting inside like shit.
Cause once u were part of their life and u
knew wht was gg on in their live.
But now u certainly dont.
Worst u are not even part of their life.
Now i wonder wht did all tht happen?
Happened for the gd or bad?
Good cause ive moved and found better ppl.
Or bad cause im still hanging on as a matter of fact.
I guess i shall not elaborate and think too much any further.

Lets talk bout today.
I was seriously pissed.
This goes to u aight.
I seriously dont like u like the way u think i do.
I was just playing a fool.
I wld not be so blind to act like u.
So dont u ever be so fcuked and have elephant skin
to think i wld act like u.
Or maybe the word u use "crush".
Whtever la ok.
Tht day ur bloody reaction was annoying.
Pls la laugh at wht LH did to u.
Wah piang.
FRUSTRATING!
Dumbass.
So if u act managed to find my blog and are reading this
and are feeling guilty,
I'VE HIT MY JACKPOT.

Lit was fine.
Was not too bad except tht i was practically writing super messy mans.
Cause i was rushing thru thanks to the first few mins of dreaming and
thinking od DUNNO WHAT!
Yea then went to bishan w LH ,J & C.
Went shopping for mother's day gift.
HAH.
But we ended up in PS.
And went to THE BODY SHOP.
And bought my mum this perfume.
Cass chose it haha.
But it was so nice tht i wanted to buy
but then din wanna be a naughty kid so got it for her.
Yea hope she likes it.
Laughed like shit at macs.
I tell u the guys beside our table were damn random
but HILARIOUS i tell u.
Damn bloody bunch of nerds who were
quite amusing.
HEH.
Yep then headed hme.

those times.
when things were diff.
when there was only happiness i exp.
u were there to brighten my day w ur smile.
i jus miss it all.

now.
this time.
where life seems worst than hell.
i dunno who to trust
and i ask myself wht is becoming of me each day.
am i true to myself?
or have i disappointed u?
i jus feel, feel the change.
wht wld u do if u were me?

at 3:45 AM

Thursday, May 10, 2007

Thurs finally gym-ed w Bren.
And now my muscles are aching.
I like it.
Heh.
Alright am suppose to be studying for lit
like everyone else but hey,
whts there to study for lit except read the book.
Which i did.
Oh wells still, to be more confident am gna read the book
for the third time in the evening.

Aft sch had to lunch outside as mum was out.
Shopping for herself perhaps.
Heh.
Lunched w J, LH & C.
Tmr am gg Bishan to get her something.
Cause it think i gotta do it for all tht
she has done for me.
Omg.
Okay am getting abit too sentimental.
Yep yep.
Act suppose to be out w fly on sat for dinner,
just a little treat my dad wants to give my mum.
But we act cancelled it due to our exams on mon.
When i mean tests i mean it w the S, its no typo.
GOT LIKE WHEERTT,
MATH & CHEM on mon mans.
Gotta mug like never before.
Need to go ntuc ltr.
To go get my study pills.
haha.
Chocs tht is.

And yea.
Something hilariously sick happened today during eng.
Ms LTL.
OKAY.
Im so not saying it here:D
Gan joined us for eng today.
Haha i tell u we went high like craezzy.
I cldnt stop laughing.
Yep guess i was self-entertaining.

I opened up
she let me down.
I wont feel tht no more..

at 2:57 AM

Monday, May 7, 2007

OHH.
Back to sch again!
Haha.
Too bad for haters:P
Got a warm huggy welcome frm HWEE MIN.
I LOVE YOU BABE(:
Yea then sch was exceptionally fine.
Went wild a bit.
Then aft sch.
Went to eat CHICKEN RICE w
Bren,Lh and Cass.
I love tht edible thing okay!
whoa.
its damn tasty and equally fattening aswell.
HAH.

Then Bren went to meet him.
Then the three of us needed some "air"
some break perhaps.
So we went to macs.
Had a sunday.
Then headed to AP.
Talked for a while.

OHHH OHH.
Before tht.
I had a stupid bet w Cass.
I ask her to go ask this ARAHH aka
the one with big hands as far as me and gan were concerned.
HEH.
SHH.
Cause i told her tht AR hands are damn big.
She denied.
So we had a bet, 5 bucks if Cass approaches her.
Guess wht my bloody bet was bloody wasteful la!
OMG.
She approached her mans.
Like wth.
Then she went like"this person wld give me 5 bucks
if u showed me ur hanD"
omg.
Just imagine ok.
She ofcourse smiled then opened her hands.
THERE WENT MY PRECIOUS 5 BUCKS.
HAHA.
NVM LA.
It jus goes to CASS.
No big deal haha.

Yea then ofcourse aft so much fun.
Shit happens.
Mum called and yea..
Had to rush hme.
Hopefully the prayers work!
And i hope my luck comes back to me(:

u dont know what you mean to me.

thanks for everything<3

at 4:58 AM

Saturday, May 5, 2007

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BRUDDDER! :D

HAHA
My day started off fine for the first time!
Haha.
And im so not saying why HERE :P

Yea lotsa ppl comin over ltr.
Just a small gathering with my relatives.
Im looking forward to it cause this bunch of ppl are
nice :D
SO YAY!
HEH.
Most of all my little joyjuice is coming aswell.
OMG tht suugarrpie!
Haha this reminds me of xiao wei!
tmr is monday!
i love mondays .
I think im gna die very soon:(

she aint nth like the girl i used to know...

at 7:49 PM

Friday, May 4, 2007

if i played u like a toy?
sometimes i wish i cld act like a boy.

Woke up at 9 plus.
Got angry cause my motherr did not wake me up.
And i soo damn wanted to got to sch.
Cause i get to be myself in sch.
At hme i cant.
Each time i shout or scream when im high
they scold me.
Like wth?
They are the only ppl who dont like me being high.
Damnit.
Sometimes i love them a lot
sometimes i totally hate them.
I knw this sounds childish but i hate it.
Oh well drop tht.

Watched the exorcist tht i borrowed frm brenda.
Maybe cause i watched it in the morn thts why i was not thrilled at
all by it.
HAH.
But it was quite scary though for watching it in the morn.
Yea then Dad came back wiith cheesefries and popcorn chicken.
I went like whurrt.
Im alrd suffering cause i've not been doing sit-ups cause i hurt my back
terribly few days back CAUSE OF SIT-UPS.
I tell u i can swear tht i look 5mths pregnant right now.
And damn,
gym day yest was cancelled and postponed cause my back
was aching like crazy.
It was postponed to Fri.
But hey looks whos here using the comp when shes suppose to be out there
in the GYM.
urghh.
All thnks to her.
Oh wells but seriously i did have a gd rest at hme act.
Knwing tht Fri had tamil im 40% glad i din go to sch.

Oh and someone told me something abt someone.
And i tell u im damn frustrated.
Its like what the heck.
So damn terrible la.
Though shes not in the same class as me neither does she
act affect my life she was a gd friend of mine in pri sch.
And hell, now i totalley detest her .
Whts the point of being nice when u hate tht person?
Its like lying and cheating urself
which i consider reprehensible.

Oh wells i have a lot more to say but hey i don wanna waste my time.
Okkay might MIGHT be going out for dinner later.
I really don wanna go i prefer Fri nights at hme and Sat nights out.
But tht doesn't happen in my life.
Fri nights hme.Sat nights hme aswell.
Only sometimes Fri nights out.
And Sat nights spent at relative's place or some
stupid useless functions they hold which is better off
not holding in the first place.
I think i have gone thru most aspects of life.
I think thts really helpful cause when im stuck at a prob
i usually or most of the times act knw how to
get my butt outt of it.
Like now i know the pain of hurting my back and i swear
the next time i do sit-ups i will lay a mat or atleast a towel.
How silly of me, when i think of it now.
Yea.
The prob now and whts getting on me is the comp.
Caus eof some stupid virus my comp was re-boot.
Then all the pics, songs, files which contains memoies are GONE.
OMG.Its like damn hard pls.
Like the only memory im left with some ppl is gone.
Terrible .
The pain of losing someone is terrible and makes u feel
hopeless, hopeless to hope.
Here i am damn bloody bored listening to like a boy over and
over again.
HEH.
Dumb but cant stop.

Yea i wanna go do something which will make
me feel better. But
the only thing i can do is sleep.
But i guess tht will make me worst.
Cause i will start to think and think.
And trust me I DON WANT TO HAVE WHITE HAIR!
Ohh my!
I wanna go for a movie.
Just any movie i've got like 4 free GV ticks la.
I dun wanna jus waste it.
I dunno wht to say alrd.

you know whts funny?
seems like everytime i try to forget abt u
my feelings pull me back in
you see,
its crazy
cause i got somebody else
you got somebody else
but u and i both know,
tht it really is?
but still..
u know wht im saying?

come with me i'll show u the world.

at 1:08 AM